Screwed. Period.

To the person that skipped out and left me with the remainder of packing, cleaning, and garbage disposal of a cabin that you trashed, thanks. After giving you a break on the rent - completely - and later, the bills, this is how you repay me and what you term my 'decency'. I understand needing or wanting sex NOW, and I understand being busy and car-less (your bike is still there, btw, if you want to pick it up), but after biking 50 miles a day to get to and from a full, biohazard-filled workday, plus errands, I still manage to make sure my responsibilities (sealing the foundation on a house, fixing a bike, a head gasket on a car, to name the big ones) are taken care of. ESPECIALLY when someone else is counting on them. And I still manage to go out and have the occasional beer whenever I have the time.

As to the excuse that I'm strong enough to pull all that off, physically, and you are not, because of this condition and that condition...I understand having life hard, but when I look at you, I see someone physically strong and capable, if you would only allow yourself to remove the mental lock on your abilities and see yourself for what your amazing potential can achieve. I wasn't born an athlete...I played sports, ran races, conditioned, and continue to ride my bike to and from whenever I can. Like mathematics or the consecutive study of anything, it builds on itself. You don't just 'get there' overnight. It takes time, effort, hard work, and above all, patience and follow-through.

You're a good person, but you have the nasty habit of thoughtlessly burning bridges. This one is about to collapse under its own charred, gutted-by-fire weight. I hate to do this, but until I receive, at very least, a sincere apology from you, preferably accompanied by some help with the deposit, I do not want to hear from you. Not that I'm putting a price tag on friendship, but financially, you essentially passed on the destitution that your ex-spouse left you with in the divorce this spring. I will help you, and I will care for you until the end of time, but I tolerate being used in the fashion that you have abused me and my trust, from absolutely no one. Life is too short. Do not ask me for help unless one or both of the above happen. I currently am without the resources.